Talk:Aiko Hatayama/@comment-47.222.8.160-20191021191703

Her emotional horror after finishing off the fanatical Pope and bishops of the Chuch of Ehit and her later guilt sounds like the sort of turmoil a civillian might have dealt with after war. Taking WW1 & WW2 as well as other wars/conflicts into account, countless people who never wielded a weapon in their life suddenly were trained into soldiers and had to fight in "Kill or be Killed" scenarios. Those who didn't die in the field likely came home grapping with a guilty conscience much like Aiko herself did.

I read about how some people (teachers among them) left for war solemn or smiling, and came home gloomy or grim. It was cases of, "The person who came home isn't exactly the same person who left." This simply makes perfect sense. The "Person who left" had not yet been in a life or death struggle where they had to kill to survive. By contrast "The Person who came back" has been through the hell of a battlefield. They changed because even if it meant another had to die so they could live, the person who left passed the instant they realized, "God have mercy on me....I have taken another's life to preserve my own. Dear God what have I done?!?!?!?"